Freedom (according to the Thesaurus) is:
Lack of restrictions
These definitions got me to thinking because today (Independence Day) just happens to be my five month mark at being smoke free and all of the above certainly apply to my new freedom from the relationship I once held so dear.
Sadly, today I was truly tempted to stop by “ye ole gas station” and have one last relationship with my old friend. I really don’t know why, but I thought I needed one more time together before I had the nerve to say “I loved you with my heart and soul, but it is over, and this time I mean it”. The only thing that stopped me was my fear... what if I couldn’t say goodbye. Strangely, this is how my first marriage ended… after years of separations, then one last fling together, that lasted months, then years and then the pattern repeated…..it took us almost 10 years from the time I first moved out until the divorce was final. Was I going to repeat this pattern? I thought I had grown up in the last 25 years, but yet, was I brave enough to end another great (or semi-great) relationship?
Bottom Line, I was brave enough once and it so was totally worth it because I found the PERFECT man in my life, so much more fulfilling than the one I had such a hard time leaving. So this new vaping relationship needs to be just as rewarding and satisfying…. ,, and yes, I can say that it is. So I drove by that gas station and told myself, this one is a keeper…… so don’t do anything to jeopardize it!
Anyway, there is a point to all this rambling… I guess I just can’t get my thoughts out, without having some moments to reminisce about the past.
This weekend we had lots of family and friends gather for the festivities, which was great. Wonderful food, friends and fireworks! I enjoyed it immensely, however, I couldn’t help but notice that by far most everyone was unimpressed with my recent separation from my beloved * V…..Slims*, but were more focused on THAT Thing *your pacifier*. Now with my family and friends, I can understand to a certain extent as they are either non-smokers, or reformed smokers (the worst of them)….. but wouldn’t you think for ONE MOMENT someone would be glad that I was no longer keeping the relationship with a certain once beloved that did not have my best interests at heart. It was like, well you have just fallen into another relationship, so what difference.
I don’t intend this to be negative, because even intense therapy probably couldn’t cure the family issues involved here (LOL, jk). But it did get me to thinking and wondering (don’t know how to start a poll)… what have you encountered with your vaping experience between family, friends, co-workers, strangers and the like.
You know me, I love to hear what others have encountered and dealt with, in anyway shape or form. So please just spill your guts here… LOL
I love you all and hope you had a marvelous and fantastic 4th of July!!!